Tuesday, January 30, 2007

I live, to serve

I remembered reading somewhere in a book that serving will nourish your soul, being cruel destroys it. Serving also brings out the kindness in you and teaches you to be humble.

while I was working on my goals and priorities list this morning, I created a to-do list, which was quite long, and at the last line, it reads ;

"I want to serve! find some time twice a week to serve at an oldfolks home"

While walking to the cafeteria, there was a donation booth for the Johor flood victims,
they also needed volunteers to help out over there,
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"This is your chance to serve!"

I thought to myself...

It's a day trip, next saturday(10th February), come back around evening or night on the same day. I'll be going alone.

I want to, but worry of stuff like mosquito breeding there and stuff, I'm going to ask my dad at dinner later. I hope he lets me.

"Challenges are what make life interesting,
overcoming them is what makes life meaningful"

-Joshua J. Marine

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Busy day tmr

6.45 am : Send kids to school and drop granma at the taxi stand for her to go to the hospital
9.45 am : Go to police station with mum to report about the 'accident', to claim from insurance
11.30 am : Go 1u, tapau lunch(prosperity burger) for bro and maybe go window shopping and check if the arcade has re-opened, got raided by MPBJ about a week ago, dunno why.

1 pm : Fetch bro back from school, bath and go tuition straight
2 pm : Pick yvonne back, go to dad's office with granma.
2 pm ish : see 2nd hand kancil with father, see worth to buy or not. I'll be more interested in the paint, whether if it's a respray or original, if ori, then I can buff it out nicely to make it at least 50% brand new.
4 pm : come home, probably rest, or play some cs, or read my book, or watch tv.
5.45 pm : Pick kennedy back from tuition.
6.20 pm : Wash grandfather's car, clean interior(2 weeks since last regular cleaning, he's paying me RM40 a month to maintain it, cheap-ass-labour)
9 pm : prepare stuff to study tmr with Derek(my new friend, whom I met during my summer classes)

I want to brag about this dude.

Derek Quek, studying Biotech in my same uni.
I have 12 hours of classes per week during my normal semester,
he has 24 hours, twice of mine, he's from Seremban,
every friday or saturday he goes back to his place to work during the weekends,
he lives in a sufficient condo over here without the luxuries,
he's using a laptop without all the extras,
I can remember the clothes he wear,
He taught me how to do my assignment eventhough I'm the one doing the subject for the 2nd time.

He is ;
-dedicated
-diligent
-non-procrastinating
-thrifty! (this means saves alot rite?)
-humble
-knows his priorities.

He's one of my role models.

My other role models that I can easily remember is ;

Zey, www.zeytee.blogspot.com

-I would say that, he is the MOST MOSTEST uncritical person I've ever met...
on forums, when I would see a post that I disagree about and really want to disagree with that forummer...
Zey would post something that agrees with him instead...
- I can brag about this guy all day.

My other role model is my dad
He has, UNLIMITED patience and humility...seriously....
with my mum's temper(she's totally yhte opposite of my dad), I wonder how my dad went through all these years....

Just bought two books.
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want to buy another one called, "the power of humility"

hmm, I feel that this post is not really myself and it's abit fake, coz maybe while typing, in my head I'm telling myself, ppl are going to read this, try to impress them...

I need to learn to be humble.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

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Thursday, January 18, 2007

For the Procrastinators

When You Run In Place, Everyone Will Pass You By.


Failure's most successful strategy is procrastination. Now is the best time to be alive and productive. If you want to make an easy job seem difficult, just keep putting off doing it. "We're all fugitives, and the things we didn't do yesterday are the bloodhounds" (Prism). Said Joseph Newton, "A duty dodged is like a debt unpaid; it is only deferred and we must come back and settle the account at last."

What holds people back? "There are those of us who are always 'about' to live. We're waiting until things change, until there is more time, until we are less tired, until we get a promotion, until we settle down-until, until, until. It always seems that there is some major event that must occur in our lives before we begin living" (George Sheehan). One of the days is really none of these days. The "sweet by and by" never comes. People who desire, but don't act, soon find themselves frozen. They make as much progress as a glacier.

About the only thing that comes to a procrastinator is old age. Do today what you want to postpone until tomorrow. "Do not allow idleness to deceive you; for while you give him today, he steals tomorrow from you" (H. Crowquill). Nothing is so fatiguing as the eternal hanging-on of an uncompleted task.

When a person gets into a habit of wasting time, they are sure to waste a great deal that does not belong to them. "One day, today, is worth two tomorrows" (Ben Franklin). What may be done at any time will be done at no time. "Life is like a taxi, the meter keeps a-ticking whether you're getting somewhere or standing still" (Lou Erickson). The successful person does the thing that others never get around to. What the fool does in the end, the wise person does in the beginning.


"Don't stand shivering upon the banks; plunge in at once and have it over with" (Sam Slick). Tomorrow is the busiest day of the week. If there's a hill to climb, don't think that waiting will make it any smaller.

An unsuccessful person takes a hundred steps because they would not take one at the right time. If possible, make the decision now, even if the action is in the future. A reviewed decision is usually better than one reached at the last moment. "The fool with all his other thoughts, has this also, he is always getting ready to live" (Epicurus). He who fiddles around seldom gets to lead the orchestra. There is danger in delay because it is always better to reap two days too soon than one day too late.

Attack procrastination by elminating all excuses and reasons for not taking decisive and immediate action. "Tomorrow will I live," the fool does say; tomorrow itself is too late; the wise live yesterday" (Martial). "While the fool is enjoying the little he has, I will hunt for more. The way to hunt for more is to utilize your odd moments . . . the man who is always killing time is really killing his own chances in life" (Arthur Brisbane)



-Copyright of John Mason


Come back and read this again whenever you are feeling lazy, or slacking about, because motivation is not permanent.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

life's in the pits

lately, my inner dialogue has been bringing me down...

"I'm not gonna get a girl..."
"No one loves me..."
"To be loved, you have to love"
"I know"
"that's why..."
sigh...

these thoughts are like on replay over and over all day...
mr.self-help-book-reader here who thinks he's got all the positive thinking thing in his head now ain't so positive anymore.

life's in the pits....

it's hard to get these thoughts outta my head...
everytime I erase them, they'll come back again,
the more I think about them the deeper the dig into my brain, (hey that rhymed)

I went on a trip yesterday with a group of highschool friends whom are all great people

one has great enthusiasm and sincerity,
one has enthusiasm, kindness and is caring,
two of whom are down to earth and doesn't give a fuck about what other ppl thinks,
one is tactful, sweet, and nice
one knows the right things to say at the right time,

I wish I had any one of those qualities.
I tried to be enthusiastic, it lasted about a day,
I tried to be kind and caring, but my 'want-face' attitude showed that it was rather fake,
same goes to being down-to-earth...

please...
help...
me.

Monday, January 01, 2007

HAPPY NEW YEAR! It's 2007!!!!!

booohahaha, first and foremost let me share someone I saw at around 2am, 1st January, 2007.
I dunno who is that but it's a she, and she wore a body hugging beige spaghetti strap, with her black bra strap visible, and then she wore chocolate jeans and what a shapely booty she has, and her hair was long and straight and she wore some cool glasses. oooh I'm in love!!! sexy sexy hot hot!

anyway what did I do, (it'll be a bit boring from here) I became a waiter at my mum's Chinatown Kopitiam, I dunno what is it with me, everytime when there's rush hour and I'm a waiter, I just get so pumped and fired up, the pressure and speed combines to give you that adrenaline surge, that's addictive! Call me dumb, but, I love being a waiter at rush hour!

then we had a countdown at the shop 10,9,...3,2,1 HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! boom baang, then we saw the fireworks shooting from 1u and The Curve/Ikano/Ikea/Tesco, and then I had to send an uncle back, which was just before the curve, and I need to go trhough it to U-turn back, that place had a concert there, and it was FRIGGIN PACKED! cars were stuck at every road, not moving for 5minutes. After 5 minutes, cars probably made a 1cm crawl. After waiting half an hour, I just gave up, parked the car at the side, locked it and walked to see what's holding up the traffic.

I walked and walked till I reached my mum's shop! which was about 10 mins drive away, about 40-50 mins walk? Nothing caused the jam, just massive traffic jammed together at the same time.

Although I didn't get to spend time with muh frens, which I really wanted to, I wasn't that disappointed cause I got to be a waiter at rush hour! Saw awesome fireworks, drive like a freaking sohai(my favourite bit everyday), blast my groove coverage while waiting half an hour in a jam, getting to help my parents(so I can ask them to tint my car, XP) and seeing a super chun hot hot sizzling hot sexy baby chick!!!! waaaaa heart meltzzz (haha lala shit).


HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!!!