Although the result is not positive I faced my fear and had to press call and end call for four times before I finally let it ring.
The tone rang and what seemed like ages to me, you picked up the phone. Although it was only a 4 minute conversation. Your sweet 'bye' at the end was worth the fear.
I asked for advice, I was given advice and encouragement in return. I became optimistic, and accepted that I might fail, but went ahead no less.
Now I am relieved, after what you've told me. This time I did not sit down and be depressed all the day, I did something, although nothing really came out of it. I got to know something which relieved me, of un-natural-ness. I get to be myself and learned to accept that I didn't make it. But I made the effort, I'm happy.
So it's time to move on, although I will still be reminded of you, and your never-ending loving-kindness, from time to time.